Danny and I found out we were expecting on New Years Eve. Although, I had been thinking about babies a lot and dreaming of the day when we had some of our own we were quite terrified when we first found out.We weren't even in the privacy of our own home so that made everything a little bit crazier. Instead, we were getting ready for a big night out with two good couple friends of ours. We were going to a concert. My friend Cory had listened to me complain about some changes in my body all afternoon and finally she said "Charley, have you taken a pregnancy test??".
This was such a silly thing for her to say... so I thought. "No," I said "I am supposed to start my period any day now!" When I told her I was late - although only a day or two - she insisted that I take a test right away. I didn't tell Danny right away that I was planning on taking the test. He was playing a game and hanging out with "the guys" and I didn't want to cause a lot of drama about something that I didn't even think was real. Ashley, the friend we were staying with, drove to get me a pregnancy test and her and Cory waited outside the bathroom door while I took the first pregnancy test of my life. I was scared while at the same time feeling silly - like I was causing drama about something that was probably not real. The first test I took didn't give an answer at all! It had a picture of a book (it was digital). After referring to the directions, we came to the obnoxious conclusion that I must have done something wrong lol ... I just had to take another one. At this point I was starting to become anxious. Why couldn't it have just said negative??! I was sure it would be and now I had to wait to build up more urine to try another test! Around that time we went to dinner per our reservations. This was the longest dinner ever. Everyone had a celebratory drink except me, but luckily Danny didn't notice. He still had no idea what was going on. We got home and the girls and I repeated everything over again only this time the answer was clear... PREGNANT. I called the girls in and showed them the news. They were so happy and tears were shed, but it didn't quite seem real to me yet. I went into the room where Danny and I were staying the night and Ashley and Cory went to tell Danny that I "needed him". As I sat alone waiting for Danny my mind was racing. Was this for real?? Is this why I hadn't been able to be hired with Danny's company? Has God been preparing me for motherhood already? As my husband walked in, all I could do is cry. I couldn't say anything. I held out my hand with the positive test in it. He freaked! Not in a bad way - in a funny way. "Is this a joke?!" he kept asking with a smile. He figured out I wasn't joking pretty quickly because he could see the fear in my eyes. That's when he began reminding me that this was good. "This is what we've wanted!" he reassured. :)
I love you. I cried reading this
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